Merry Christmas and Happy New Year from Butterworth

Should note that, again, I had not been on-line-ing using my laptop. Therefore, there might be several weird post once I did so. At the moment, I just can't stand leaving my blog vacant for such a long time, especially during this festive season.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Everyone

and I am typing this from Butterworth - A Place that Worth like Butter!

This reminds me when I saw the address with P.W. and I found out in Form 3 that it actually stands for Province Wellesley, which is now more known as Seberang Perai and in Penang State, which is previously Prince of Wales Island - though I have no idea why should an island be named after a prince anyway...

Okay, just a brief type out before I actually bring out my laptop... So, enjoy the holiday while filling the time with your work! (I can't believe I am still thinking of my lab even though it's Christmas - I'm just Weird and Crazy, I guess)...

À la claire fontaine

Forgive me, really. Instead of continuing my post on movie review of Harry Potter 7, I can’t help myself but to share this French song, which I heard from <<Au revoir, les enfants>> today.

Les paroles:

À la claire fontaine
M’en allant promener
J’ai trouvé l’eau si belle
Que je m’y suis baigné
Il y a longtemps que je t’aime,
Jamais je ne t’oublierai.
Sous les feuilles d’un chêne,
Je me suis fait sécher.
Sur la plus haute branche,
Un rossignol chantait.
Il y a longtemps que je t’aime,
Jamais je ne t’oublierai.
Chante, rossignol, chante,
Toi qui as le cœur gai.
Tu as le cœur à rire…
Moi je l’ai à pleurer.
Il y a longtemps que je t’aime,
Jamais je ne t’oublierai.
J'ai perdu mon amie
Sans l'avoir mérité.
Pour un bouquet de roses
Que je lui refusai…
Il y a longtemps que je t’aime,
Jamais je ne t’oublierai
Je voudrais que la rose
Fût encore au rosier,
Et moi et ma maîtresse,
Dans les mêmes amitiés.
Il y a longtemps que je t’aime,
Jamais je ne t’oublierai

Autre version du refrain:

Fendez le bois, Chauffez le four, Dormez la belle, Il n'est point jour.

One Species, Many Subspecies

It is still a mystery how human evolve from one species to another and finally homo sapiens. And I am wondering quite a lot about it as well. Human, is indeed an interesting species – very! Just take one task, for example, teaching, and you will get such a wide range of teachers. And this bring me back to my main point over here!

I had already made up my mind to be as forgiving as I can and as respecting others as I can. Seriously, at this time of the civilization, not much people are really paying true respect to the teachers. But as a kid growing up under two teachers, I stayed my principle in respecting the effort the teachers put in. And then I came to know not all teachers are as dedicated as they should have. Some of them, treated their job as just a process to get salary and that’s it, you get the money, you spend them and you die. Now, I met this fellow who was assigned to me as my mentor (if he reads this, I would be glad!). Okay, so how does the things go? Yes, as an undergraduate, I am supposed to be proactive, intelligent, knowledgeable, ready to take in knowledge and everything – all the good values, basically. Who doesn’t like students with all the moral values?!

Yes, I can read a lot of things off the book, I can get a lot of information off the Internet, but when it comes to practical and application to experiments, I take time to adjust and there are doubts. At this time, I have to deal with a guidance who did not reply my calls, sms-es, emails and even written notes. FINE! So, I have to ask him face to face. But, when I am asking question, sometimes, it’s still okay – but sometimes, I was bombarded back with more confusion and replies which sounds more like scolding than explanation. Again, the effect of explanation did not even reach 50% of the reply. FINE! Not only I have to suit myself to the mumbling voice, but to filter information accordingly. Then, when it comes to using equipment, when there’s not enough equipment, I was given all used up apparatus and was asked to wash all those things, which I have no idea what were there inside! Plus, the attitude of this mentor is more of caring his own research than others. In other word, he doesn’t even care of my research and treated it as though I am playing in the lab!

Hey you, all of us are doing research and we love our research but we respect other’s research. You are my mentor, OKAY! I pay you my respect and that’s enough. If you wish to have respect from me, then you need to earn your way! In this era, I have no obligation to follow all your instructions or lick the dirt out of your shoes! If you doesn’t even earn a qualification to be my mentor, I will only label you as ‘mentor’ as my only respect! I have my own research. They might be tiny compared to several others, but it is still a research. I understand failure is common but there are several ways to fail, so it’s not funny to play trick so that I didn’t get the result and ask me to redo the thing again! My time is to face greater failure than all these small things. Besides, in terms of respecting other’s research, cleaning apparatus properly, using machine properly are the basic ones. Why is it so difficult? This is not only for mentor but all those who never bother to do it! Do you think empty bottles pop out from thin air, don’t you?! And, you are the one who says the lab fund is running low, but then you are the one who did not even bother to look through my proposal to make sure I make full use of the materials. For God’s sake, I am only an undergraduate and I am prone to many many MANY mistakes – mistakes that I might not even know after I get the result! If teaching is to put a label on your sleeve as ‘teacher’ and let your student rot, everyone on this earth can be teacher!

Hmm… seems like the fire is still burning under – but yes, I think I shall say only what matters most. I just wish to spit all these illogical stuff out. But do feel thankful for certain members in the lab who are willingly teach me instead of what the mentor did. I think, for people, especially researchers, attitude is a very important thing and it’s a key to do something for the world. It’s still difficult to find someone who is willing to devote his or her personality, principle, time, energy, strength, anything left in him or her for the greater good. And I would say, it is this selfishness of human nature that held human back from moving forward all these millennium. I wonder when will human evolve to be as selfless as all those wise people which mostly could only be seen in our history books…

The Christmas Shoes by Newsong

Christmas is around and just feels like sharing this song. The movie is nice as well .

Is This Luck?!

I have no idea whether to say I’m lucky or unfortunate… haha!

After dozing off while waiting for the sonicator with it producing tonnes of whistling sound, pulsing all the way, I decided to take a break while I have free time. So, after placing the bottles in the centrifuge, I decided to sneak off for a break with some nice lunch, at least. Summer shared two songs by Eason with me, which I have no idea what’s the name but heard before. And then, I hopped on the bus and went for Japanese food at Arts Canteen. I met my friend over there and we chatted. After she left, I propped open my log book to record down what I’ve done yesterday and while I was writing down the buffer I made, something came right BANG!

Yes, it’s a WHAM! I realized the urea I added for my denaturing condition buffers are not the correct ones!!! Looking at the manual of ‘8M’, I checked and found ‘8mM’ in my calculation on C-fold towel. The first thing I reacted was a ‘dang’ in my head. How could I be more careless than this?! And then I remembered that while I was preparing the buffer, I was supposed to adjust the pH using HCl and when I checked mine, it is below 7.0, which means I used NaOH. And I remembered I used up the whole bottle of NaOH. If stupidity and careless are crimes, I will be the number One Wanted person now! I should have notice something is wrong when I have to use NaOH instead of HCl!!! And I was wondering did I added the correct ingredient! It was not the type of ingredient, it is urea, the one that gives alkaline numbers, that is insufficient!!! And Aldo reminded me before that the problem with urea-based buffers is that it is very difficult to dissolve. And yesterday I was so happily preparing the ingredients without any difficulties! I should have sensed the weirdness!!!

Anyway, yes, I recalculated the figures on the spot and travel back to lab just to redo the buffers. Ah, but then I realized how difficult it is to dissolve those seemingly lovely urea balls.  But nonetheless, I shall consider myself lucky instead. Instead of realizing how wrong I am when I need the buffer or AFTER I used it, I found out about it before all these went wrong and affect my experiment, lucky, really! Imagine I put all the buffers in and realize it was not working just to find out that the urea content is not right in my buffer! That would be much more cruel, I daresay…

Yeap, this is an incident to remind myself to be much more careful next time… no more mistakenly omitting a milli, haha! Wish everything will be okay and yes, I still have half a bottle of urea balls to dissolve tomorrow with two buffers to be adjusted back to the correct pH. These are interesting events… not to mention being lectured by the lab officer because our lab is suddenly short of those blue-capped bottles… Okay, shall stop here – Research is not easy, be it in Science or in Arts .

La Liberté guidant le peuple by Eugène Delacroix vs Coldplay

Trust me, this is totally random, haha! My playlist shuffles and it came to Viva La Vida by Coldplay. This song brought me suddenly back to one of the LT and reminded me of this picture – or rather, a painting.

It is actually a painting titled “La Liberté guidant le peuple” meaning “Liberty Leading the People” by Eugène Delacroix. The painting is about July Revolution in France in 1830 where Charles X is overthrown. Liberty is portrayed as a female and it’s feminine in French as well! One interesting thing is as history went along the pages, Great Britain is always sympolized as a man while France as a woman…

Anyway, back to my randomness. Yes, this photo was one of the slides during the class and the lecturer reminded the student , “- And this is about the French revolution, not Coldplay album cover”. But when I think back, this sentence is not exactly true! Since the album cover of Coldplay is actually taken from this painting, edited and added with the album name, it can still be said that some part of this painting’s meaning will live inside the album cover… Hmm… Yea, just a random recordings of my memory .

What Kind of Big Day?

7th of December, what day is that?! Just came back from friend’s birthday celebration, I might just say it is someone’s birthday? But this day has a much bigger meaning than that!

7th of December 1941, around 7.55 am Hawaii time, Japanese airplane launched an attack on United States naval base at Pearl Harbour, Hawaii. When the Japanese airplane, with their red symbol of rising sun, swooped across the region, they might never know this day meant a lot, to the world and their country.

This action made a critical turning point to the on-going World War II at the moment. After World War I, most of the powers were scarred by it and would not wish to get themselves into deep muck without any important reason. Having the Axis extending their tentacles across mainly European region, United States did not actually involve itself into the big event. However, the attack on Pearl Harbour forced the Big Power to react by being drawn into the Allies and this marked the start of downfall of the Axis. Although we can’t deny that other Great Powers such as the Soviets had been contributing somehow, but having United States involved meant another intervention of big power, with manpower and technology. In the end, United States placed nuclear bomb “Little Boy” in Hiroshima on 6th of August 1945 and atomic bomb “Fat Man” in Nagasaki 9th of August 1945 , for the final chapter of the long-remembered event in history. And eventually, this brought an end to Pacific War and World War II with Japan surrendered to the Allies by signing Instrument of Surrender on 2 September the same year and Germany signing Instrument of Surrender on 7 May.

However, is bombing in Hiroshima and Nagasaki a revenge for the Pearl Harbour attack? I think I need to read more for that. But thinking back, Japan’s action gave United States the excuse of entering the war no matter the U.S. wanted or not. And when it came to shelling the Japanese cities, U.S. was given the good side because of that! If one country is to place two nuclear bomb on another country, the previous one would looked like the fault. But in this case, U.S. somehow was given the opportunity to do it as a ‘justice’ towards the Axis. In the world of Powers, sometimes you really need to be smarter and watch where you are going…

Living the Past

Have you ever thought where you were standing was actually part of the history? Have you ever wondered what happened today in the past few decades? Have you ever imagined who had been using the same building as you but maybe for a different purpose? History seems so far, yet, they are so near, living itself just around us. In fact, we are making history each moment! However, there are people who used images of the past to merge with the current photos: Sergey Larenkov.

In his blog, he presented several photos which he edited. Those photos were a merge of photos of current and past, on the same location. There were chances where the buildings still looked the same and they looked quite cool! I am quite entertained to view the photos. Most of the photos were from the World War II period.

Some examples:

I really like the photos. Not as in I enjoy how things happened but I appreciate what I have now and what this photos told me… Therefore, I would like to share them to you.

Der Untergang (Downfall): Last Days of Adolf Hitler

Before I talk about Harry Potter movie, I would like to share a review on this other movie which I watched before my final exam. In fact, I watched this for a background understanding of Adolf Hitler’s life in another and simpler perspective while preparing for my second document analysis for EU3212.

The movie starts with Traudl Junge, together with several other ladies, heading towards the Wolfsschanze to be interviewed personally by Adolf Hitler for the post of Hitler’s personal secretary. Junge was chosen and the plot continued as Nazi Germany was going downhill. The movie was not only about the last ten days of Adolf Hitler, but also the last twelve days of Nazi Germany. As the plot continues, Nazi Germany was challenged by the Allies forces. Adolf Hitler spent most of his last days in his underground bunker in Berlin while Berlin became the frontline city of Germany. This period of time was depicted as a nerve breaking episodes as the Nazis supporters started to lose their faith in their leader but at the same time wished to serve the Fuhrer till the last moment of their life. In between, there were those who fled but ended up their life terminated by the Fuhrer’s order; there were those who stayed due to their fear towards the Fuhrer following death of those betrayed the Nazi – and there were those who volunteered to serve the Fuhrer, regarding him as a charismatic and dedicated leader. Some would say these people had been blinded, some would say Hitler had indeed been a great leader – but one thing was sure, many sacrificed under Nazi Germany, including the supporters and the non-supporters.

Outside the bunker, there was a small part of the story, of a boy who was brainwashed under the Nazi regime and swore to serve the Fuhrer at a young age. Not listening to his father, he joined the force as Berlin became shelling targets. Civilians were the victims and everything became chaotic as the tensed situation showed the ugliness of humanity inside Berlin itself. On the other hand, life under the bunker, though tensed, yet did not have much affect of the bloodshed outside. Junge spent her days working obediently and was one of the female workers who regarded Hitler as a great leader. There were emotional moments and story span in with more and more crisis. Hitler went from believing in victory to decision of writing his last testament. Junge was responsible in typing both Hitler’s and Goebbels’ political testament and was anxious with the fact that Nazi was going to fall under the Allies. The front part of the movie were more of a depiction of Hitler’s life in his bunker. As situation tensed, the focus went on to the ‘farewell’ part. Hitler made sure everything is planned before he committed suicide on 30th April 1945 under his own gunshot with his newly-wed wife Eva Braun. Their bodies were then burned outside the entrance to the lair. Consequently, Joseph Goebbels became the Chancellor but committed suicide as well, this time, with his whole family, poisoning all his six children with morphine and ampules of cyanide and the couple shot themselves. Their bodies were also burned.

At the same time, people like Junge were actually asked to leave but did not leave due to their ‘ultimate’ faith in the Nazi leader. But when everything came to an end, the Allies closed in and Germany surrendered. Several loyal Nazis committed suicide leaving not much of those who were close to the Fuhrer himself left to disclose about the Fuhrer at a more personal level. Through this movie, it is easier to understand the history better and at the same time get an insight on how Adolf Hitler’s life was still a mystery to the world. He himself had been a person who kept his personal story secret, giving people the impression as a man who dedicated fully to the country. Besides, his action in grabbing his followers’ faith and death of theirs, led no trace back to the very close distance of understanding Hitler. Whether it is a planned action or not, I would say, it worked somehow. Though, it is hard to tell the history in a two hour film.

The movie ended with the real Junge being interviewed. One of the famous thing she said was she only realized what terrible things Nazi had done after she left the bunker and she thought at first she should be pardoned due to her young and naive age – until she saw the monument commemorating Sophie Scholl – that she realized young age is not an excuse. However, overally, the movie emphasized also on the blindness of people following Nazism, without understanding what it really is, resulting in so many unwanted consequences…

Here is the trailer for the movie:

When Arts and Science Meet

Okay, this post had been delayed more than once and now, I’m going to put this up!

It’s about a blog which I would like to share with all of you, especially those who considered arts and science as an equal interest in your life! The site is called The Illustrated Garden: Val Webb’s studio blog. This is not a site mainly of sharing arts but more of a channel which share such passion mixed with  workshops. However, the main aim I visited this site is more on the arts . The author of the blog shared a lot of his/her passion on arts, which were on plants and some creatures. Most of the time, they were plants and it reminds me of my Dad drawing plants. Seriously, when I found out Papa actually draws, I was so shocked. For all I knew, he drew diagrams, physics diagrams, experiments setup and something on the same line – but plants?! Yes, I found out that in my Secondary 1 . All the while, it was Mummy who was drawing – that’s why I did not notice Papa’s talent, I guess… haha!

Anyway, this is a nice blog to look at how people draw plants .

Officially Ending the Semester

As what I had been doing all the semesters before this, I am going to end the semester (academic aspects) officially with the usual tradition. This semester, the deadlines and tests seemed to be lesser than semesters when I have language, this tells us something, no? But this semester, I am taking five modules with a UROPS project. Here, I would like to write down roughly about each module as a review and a record of the memory. Okay, let’s start here:

LSM3211 Fundamental Pharmacology

This module is truly the one that is testing my limit. Not that I’m really that bad at remembering things but my remembering system is not the same as others. I remember things that I prefer. And in this module, I am expected to remember everything. Well, this is FUNDAMENTAL pharmacology, but the nature, as I find out, was not the one that I expected. I understand the memorizing thing and I am actually excited in knowing all the drugs and their mechanism. I actually liked the part most when we started to learn the drugs according to diseases and disorders. However, the final exam did failed me as they were asking mostly things that you need to regurgitate out right from the notes not something you think. This very aspect, did disgust me as I really don’t like this kind of exam. I wish I can pass the module but I am sure I don’t like this type of knowledge-learning process and is regarded by me as a very low standard of learning (although I might say I am not good at this at all).

LSM3212  Human Physiology: Cardiopulmonary System

I find this module quite interesting with all the practical and applications. In between, I had been very careless over the quizzes. I do think the classes were interesting although they might look simple. Yes, I enjoy seeing all the things reassemble themselves into place, and that’s the wonder of human body! This module has actually reminded me how I was thinking how to robotize things when I was young. (alright, shall not deviate to much from the topic) Some of the lecturers are really good at inducing thinking inside me, I daresay, which is why I like the way I learn them. At least, when I am learning this module, I don’t feel like I’m not thinking.  

LSM3232 Microbiology

Oh, this module is a result of my increasing interest in the micro-world, especially since Experimental Microbiology I took last year. The content is good and acceptable although they might seem to be repeating something but that’s because not everyone took experimental microbiology. Not that I am good or bad at it, but the knowledge I learned from it is really both cool and useful. However, this year, I was actually a bit disappointed when I was assigned to a bench with a TA not really expected. Compared to experimental microbiology, this year’s group is more dependant on TAs and everything. I still remember how the group got bombarded with ‘bombs’ when we started to ask some question that we should have find out ourselves in experimental microbiology’s first practical. After that very session, all of us will always come to practical session with a manual full with our own notes and extras. This is the very difference from this year’s. However, the practical are still acceptable as I understand the TA is actually struggling to learn as well, since she is from virology and might have forgotten a lot of things along the years. Overall, this module is quite okay.

EU1101E Making of Modern Europe

What should I say about this module? Hmm, this is truly a big step from my past – seriously. (I will leave that in another post, thanks) This module is very interesting – and when I say very interesting, the tone is VERY INTERESTING! I get to learn the European History from the old order till Cold War. Due to the very long-stretched period covered in one semester, the content is rather compact but if we were to look into detail, what we learned would have been a speck from a sea of mimosa! But since it is an exposure module, I think the module had been doing really well in exposing us to the world of European History. In fact, my interest towards European History did not diminish but augmented over the period of time. In this module, I get to join in groups to finish a task: a simulation for Congress of Vienna 1815. Some tutorial groups were doing Treaty of Versailles 1918. I had been hesitating which tutorial class to take as my initial interest on European History was actually more on Hitler and Nazism. But it seems that this decision exposed me to the opportunity to try something other than my own interest and I LIKE IT! We get to write a brief for the simulation in which the joy of working with a group is mingled with some difficulties. I was quite worried at first as I am, by nature, a person who preferred to be myself. When I enter a tutorial or class, I will choose the one at the corner, and I really don’t appreciate a full chatters of people. But this module somehow made me adapt to it, at least during this course. I enjoyed having the bunch of group mates and they had been great teachers to me, in terms of their spirit and will, truly! Besides, I have got two really dedicated lecturers cum tutor. Seriously, of all these years in NUS, they are one of the few that I met and is really a gift if compared to science faculty. What can I say? I think maybe Science teachers were showing their passion in other way. Hmph, yes, if the teacher who gave me a dream as a Scientist when I was 10 years old is a special person who gave me the key to become a Scientist; then, these two lecturers, can qualify as the key person who led me over a big stepping stone into the world of History. In another terms, it means, they have actually scored a certain level of importance in my lifetime, seriously…

EU3212 Europe of Dictators

This module came to me not as easy as anybody else, I must admit. First of all, I was not even allowed to take this module! I have to make appeals, send emails and I think things started to show some miracle when I entered my first lecture for EU1101E. I was actually still not taken into this class when the school starts and just before the lecturer turned off his computer, his ivle showed EU3212 listed under his course list! Something clicked and all I can do is to run down to ask this lecturer whom I have no idea who he is! But I am very sure I wanted to take this module at that time that I sort of think if I missed this chance to ask, the office might have forgotten about my appeal and I will have to linger to some other course that I have no interest in! In fact, taking a level 3000 European Studies module was not my initial plan as this what the students called ‘suicide’. I like the course as I read the description but it was always at my back up list until I realized that French for Academic Purposes (a module which is an exclusion for French 4) is not counted as a requirement for an EU minor when FAP is actually teaching more than French 4, crazy, ain’t it?! And I need a level 3000 to fulfil my minor which turned the arrow back as I SU-ed my French 3. Putting interest with getting a minor is always not my primary choice, but seeing that I have done half of the requirement, I think this is the time when you say fate calls upon. I reckon this is the best reason, or rather – an excuse, to take this module. At least, I have an excuse when people were calling me crazy (not that I care since I was labelled like that since young). But yes, as I say earlier, I am somehow interested in this part of the history. You can say I’m evil – but I AM EVIL! Okay, back to the topic, the module is very very VERY interesting and it’s what I wanted to learn! So, passion towards the subject is a definite in this class. Though, it was not easy to cope in a class with a majority of History and Political Sciences Majors… It is not only a psychological threat but also a reality. Given my standard of knowledge (only one chapter of European History in SPM which I managed to scrap only a C5) and poor English standard, I am very clear where I am standing in the class. First of all, I was quite miserable at first with all that are taught in class. I have to thank all the readings and textbooks that cleared most of the doubts and also truly – Wikipedia, which served as most of my background reading due to my meagre knowledge on European History. Along the course, things started to get better as I slowly catch up the pace. Other than that, I am very lucky to have Jan inside the class. Being an ex-hallmate, I would say we were not really close buddies (this comes to me that I don’t really have close buddies) but when I found a familiar face among those 48 students, it’s no doubt a surprise! And I guess that’s why I did not sit at a corner in class. She helped me a lot and I am really touched by that (Oh God, what happened to me? I am supposed to be cold-blooded and the evil Dark Lord!). Anyway, yes, the course talked about main dictatorships in Europe in the early 20th century. And throughout the course, we were to submit two document analysis which we will need to choose out of five each time on some scanned pages. I tried my best on it and learned a lot of things from that. I feel honoured to be given such a chance, really! Another thing will be the teacher. Yes, the teacher is actually that teacher which I mentioned where I rushed down a LT just to ask if I can enter this class. No doubt, he’s a good teacher and had been really a big help throughout the course. This teacher actually made me wondered why is there such a big difference between Arts and Science teachers. But no offence, he’s a good teacher and I salute for any teacher just like him.

Alright, I have been talking too much eh? And I haven’t actually ended! Why? Because when all the other modules ended with final exam papers, there is still one which will be on-going until I complete it with a presentation and a long report next semester, that’s my LSM3288 Advance UROPS Project. Looking at myself, a Life Sciences Student who is concentrating in Biomedical Science, not really doing well and is struggling for a better result while there is a complete NO to continue into the honours years unless miracles happen. And when this is me and I still wish to do something I like, UROPS seems to be one of the choice when it resembles Honours year project in some way. The ultimate reason will be: it’s a research!

LSM3288 Advanced UROPS

Not completed yet. What do I think? Personally, I think there are places and really big space where I can still improve! In truth, I was also not allowed to take this module (wow, I have not been following the natural way huh?). Yes, I got this project by sending over 40+ emails to different professors and several emails to the office for appeals. And I am really lucky to meet this professor who is willing to give me a chance. To think it as a whole, I still have a long way to go. The first month of two, while coping with other courses, I had been really miserable in terms of adjusting my experiment schedule to fit into my academic timetable – and that includes time for my own study. Besides, I have to learn a lot of things in a different manner. Instead, I would rather say I was quite confused when I was treated like a graduate or phD student in terms of co-ordinating my project. My professor must have been so busy that he put a mentor for me. And that mentor was actually so busy that teaching me seemed to be a tedious job for him! Hence I ended up hanging there halfway. How did I get through? Independence. I recollected all the negative feelings and appreciated them to be trusting an undergraduate like me. In turn to continue with these obstacles, I have to start learning things all by myself. Journals, books, the Internet, they became my good friends. And that’s only the theoretical part! In practical, I am subjected to trial-and-error. I have to try times and times and times to figure out where did the mistake came and how to improve it. I have to figure out myself where is the chemical inside the lab while considering if it is viable for the result. When I found some substance is not working normally, I have to risk the label of ‘wasting resources’ by testing each and every of them to find out the key factor and launch a complaint by explaining how did I determine something’s wrong. And without a proper guide, I would say, I learned a lot of things in painful and long way. I truly felt how it feels when everything was so difficultly done and sometimes, one little thing will just blow everything away, within a millisecond. If I were to blame these on someone, there will be millions to be blamed. But, I preferred to put it as a task to be learned. However, this is one of the rare case when I failed so many times, yet I still LIKE them!!! Wait, I didn’t fail, I just found many ways of it not working, haha! Yes, I appreciate the chance I had for this module .

Okay, I think I have roughly reviewed all the things I had learned this semester. Yes, I will just end it here then. See ya!